|Excited, terrified, and wearing a strange knit helmet, but still ready to jump!|
I am having to re-invent myself. I have to try new things, take some chances, let go, and embrace. I have taken a few steps toward doing that. I signed up for two online classes. One started this week, the other starts next week. One is about taking risks and the other is a writing workshop.
I have already begun Andrea Scher's Cultivating Courage and it's scary and supportive and fun and thought-provoking. Today's challenge had to do with asking for help, and that has had me thinking all day. I work hard to set up support networks, especially when it comes to childcare, which is the thing that handcuffs me the most. Thinking about where in my life I felt like I needed help or support, the thing that felt most true was that I feel like I need a cheerleader. Someone to applaud or laugh or encourage me as I go through the grind of being a wife and mom, someone to recognize the day-in, day-out contributions I make relentlessly behind the scenes to keep everyone happy and fulfilled. So that's what I am going to try to seek out a little more consciously. And if any of you want to volunteer, the answer is yes.
Next Monday I start Alice Bradley's The Practice of Writing, and I am very nervous about it. I have often thought I would be a professional writer "someday" and I feel like I'm dipping my toe in the waters of maybe that being now. I feel intimidated and unqualified and uncertain, but I think it will be a good catalyst to get me jumpstarted on writing more seriously. The good thing is that I can definitely use this as one of my brave things for Andrea's course because it sure scares the crap out of me!
These e-courses are great because I can do them on my own timeline, don't have to arrange babysitting to show up to class, and can do it at my own pace and privately. It seems like a good place to start experimenting and growing.
What would you do if you were being brave?